Drowning (Mick) - PG

[redwinter101]

Title: Drowning
Author: redwinter101
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own Moonlight or any of its characters

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--- Drowning ---

Mouth, nose, throat, clogged to overflowing, unable to breathe. He was surrounded, filled, the pressure forcing through, removing thought and decision.

Mick struggled for air, struggled for life, his instinct to break for the surface, to escape from the deep and head for the light. But his body refused to obey, his hands clamping tighter, pulling nearer. His pressure against the girl’s vein, inexorable.

“It’s okay, baby,” Coraline’s proud hand stroking his hair, calming his jerky tremble.

He turned away but he couldn’t stop. Two lives lost in the gush of red heat, drowning in life and death.

[francis]

Poor Mick!!! You describe his suffering at feeding for the first time so well. It must have been such a shock for him to run on instinct and his brain and heart unable to stop the monster inside. Your metapher of drowning works very well.
I can feel this in my bones, I almost need to catch my breath too.
Does Coraline even understand what he's going through?
Well done!

[wpgrace]

OMG! At first I thought you were describing his turning!!!
I got halfway thru before I got you were doing his first feeding!

Cool, what you've done. It's a similar experience for Mick... and sense of death once again, of helplessness and wrong.
Well done!!

[seamus3333]

"It's okay, baby." No, it's not, Coraline. A potato knows more of love than you.

[redwinter101]

francis, thank you - and don't forget to breathe... Does Coraline understand? Yes, intellectually. Emotionally? No. To her this is a stage to get through, nothing more, nothing less, whereas for Mick it is crossing a barrier from which he can never return.

Grace, thank you, sweetie. Happy you caught this one!!!

Red

[Lilly]

Red - I just adore this. Drabbles do so lend themselves to urgent, even claustophobic, situations because so much is expressed in such a short space. You've conveyed Mick's desperate struggle and final surrender in 100 perfect words.

[allegrita]

Oh, this is just...

As I read this amazing drabble, I was watching that wonderful flashback scene in my mind, reliving it with him. It grabbed me by the heart and just squeezed till it hurt. I believe this first feeding/killing was even worse than the turning, because the turning was done to him... and he did the killing himself. This is where Mick truly became a monster in his own eyes.

Poor Mick. And poor Coraline, too. She had no idea of the damage she was doing to his psyche. She loved him so much, but she didn't understand him at all.

[PNWgal]

Drowning. An excellent way to describe trying to escape a situation over which you have no control. It chokes you, surrounds you, doesn't let you go, no matter how hard you fight it.

This brings back Mick's plaintive "But I don't want this!" so clearly. He wanted no part of being Turned, yet now the vampire overrides his horror and takes what it needs, drowning Mick's humanity in the process.

VERY nice.

[redwinter101]

Thank you, ladies.

Red

[mitzie]

This is so powerful and has a sense of urgency!! Mick, helpless and trapped by the nature of the vampire and Coraline's lack of understanding just makes it worse for him. Excellent drabble!!!!


mitzie

[fairytoes]

Red, this is absolutely awesome! I love it.

[jen]

I tink Coraline would have understood once.

Unfortunately for Mick, and perhaps even more unfortunately for her, that time is centuries behind her at this point, and perhaps decades in her future, as well.

I would like to believe that she came to understand Mick a little bit. She once told Mick that she 'wanted to feel life again' and that 'maybe love can't exist without mortality'

Did these words wipe away the unbelievable cruelty of her actions? No, of course they didn't. I took Mick's failure to pursue Lance and Coraline as evidence that, even after all Coraline said, he still didn't trust her--but he fought for her, even as a human.

Sorry--getting off topic. This was stunning, Red. At that moment in time, Coraline was incapable of understanding anything. She understood possessing and being posessed, but not love.

Thank you.

Jenna

[redwinter101]

mitzie, fairytoes, thank you both.

jen, that's a fascinating point about Coraline. Gets me thinking about her turning... But I'll have to disagree with you about love. It may not be your definition of love, nor mine, but by hers I believed she loved Mick. Didn't understand him in the slightest, but loved him.

Red

[aolver]

My heart aches for Mick.

[redwinter101]

My heart aches for Mick.

You and me both.

Red