Four years since "Because I love you."
Posted: Wed May 16, 2012 10:54 pm
Four years ago tonight, on Friday, May 16th, 2008, Beth tried to send Mick away. She just couldn't take it anymore, living on the edge of his world. All the secrecy, the awkward silences, the harsh revelations of what "difficult, dangerous, and complicated" could mean, when vampires were involved. She'd tried, she really had, but it was just too hard when Mick wouldn't let her in.
She stood there in her apartment, her face stricken and her cheeks wet with tears. She told him she couldn't do it anymore, and he didn't have an answer for her. Because the only possible answer he could give her would open a door he could never close again. And there was so much danger on the other side of that door--danger Beth couldn't possibly understand. Mick couldn't bring himself to expose her to the full reality of vampire existence.
Sure, he'd hinted about it. He'd told her about the scrounging, the hiding, the violent tendencies... the things he'd had to give up. And over the months she'd seen some of the worst, he had to admit--and she hadn't let it stop her. But after the catastrophe that was his marriage to Coraline, he was afraid--yes, afraid--of making a commitment to another woman. Especially Beth. His Beth. Even after all he'd given up for her, all they'd been through together, he just couldn't say the words.
He turned and walked away from her, tried to walk out of her life. He told himself it was for her own good. But the rush of grief he felt stopped him in his tracks, and he turned toward the wall, fighting his urge to leave. Fighting his urge to stay.
I spent the past 55 years trying to close the door on forever. But I can’t anymore. I can’t close the door on Beth.
When Mick turned back toward Beth's apartment, time stopped for me. I didn't breathe, didn't blink, didn't move.
He knocked; no answer.
He knocked again. Eight times. Nothing, except maybe a whimper only a vampire could hear.
He opened that door, and then he opened his heart to her, as much as he could. He opened his long-locked heart and poured his feelings out, speaking to Beth's back. And she heard, between the words, what he couldn't yet say.
She asked him that silly question about the first time they met, and of course he knew the answer. Even about the shoes.
And then she asked him how he could know all that... and he finally said it. "Because I love you."
Finally, they kissed each other as lovers kiss. Messily, passionately, but both wanting it. Neither one shying away or resisting. And then Mick closed the door, leaving us on the outside.
And I cried buckets.
But you know what? Even though that was the very last we saw of them, I knew it was going to be all right. I knew Moonlight would live on in my heart, and the hearts of the other fans who loved it so dearly. I knew that somehow, Mick and Beth and all the other wonderful characters that brought Moonlight so vividly to life, would keep on living in Los Angeles. Josef would make a killing in the real estate bubble and get out just in time. Guillermo would start dating that flirtatious Cleaner. Steve would get a job at the Staples Center and start working Lakers and Clippers games. Beth would introduce Sam and Logan, and they'd become gaming buddies and collaborators on many a hacking adventure. Coraline would escape with Cynthia's assistance, and move to a hidden location, still searching for the Cure... and would undoubtedly return at some point, and try to entice Mick away again.
And that Facebook IPO that's coming up? Well, let's just say that Kostan Industries is probably intimately involved. And Josef's friends are about to get a lot richer.
She stood there in her apartment, her face stricken and her cheeks wet with tears. She told him she couldn't do it anymore, and he didn't have an answer for her. Because the only possible answer he could give her would open a door he could never close again. And there was so much danger on the other side of that door--danger Beth couldn't possibly understand. Mick couldn't bring himself to expose her to the full reality of vampire existence.
Sure, he'd hinted about it. He'd told her about the scrounging, the hiding, the violent tendencies... the things he'd had to give up. And over the months she'd seen some of the worst, he had to admit--and she hadn't let it stop her. But after the catastrophe that was his marriage to Coraline, he was afraid--yes, afraid--of making a commitment to another woman. Especially Beth. His Beth. Even after all he'd given up for her, all they'd been through together, he just couldn't say the words.
He turned and walked away from her, tried to walk out of her life. He told himself it was for her own good. But the rush of grief he felt stopped him in his tracks, and he turned toward the wall, fighting his urge to leave. Fighting his urge to stay.
I spent the past 55 years trying to close the door on forever. But I can’t anymore. I can’t close the door on Beth.
When Mick turned back toward Beth's apartment, time stopped for me. I didn't breathe, didn't blink, didn't move.
He knocked; no answer.
He knocked again. Eight times. Nothing, except maybe a whimper only a vampire could hear.
He opened that door, and then he opened his heart to her, as much as he could. He opened his long-locked heart and poured his feelings out, speaking to Beth's back. And she heard, between the words, what he couldn't yet say.
She asked him that silly question about the first time they met, and of course he knew the answer. Even about the shoes.
And then she asked him how he could know all that... and he finally said it. "Because I love you."
Finally, they kissed each other as lovers kiss. Messily, passionately, but both wanting it. Neither one shying away or resisting. And then Mick closed the door, leaving us on the outside.
And I cried buckets.
But you know what? Even though that was the very last we saw of them, I knew it was going to be all right. I knew Moonlight would live on in my heart, and the hearts of the other fans who loved it so dearly. I knew that somehow, Mick and Beth and all the other wonderful characters that brought Moonlight so vividly to life, would keep on living in Los Angeles. Josef would make a killing in the real estate bubble and get out just in time. Guillermo would start dating that flirtatious Cleaner. Steve would get a job at the Staples Center and start working Lakers and Clippers games. Beth would introduce Sam and Logan, and they'd become gaming buddies and collaborators on many a hacking adventure. Coraline would escape with Cynthia's assistance, and move to a hidden location, still searching for the Cure... and would undoubtedly return at some point, and try to entice Mick away again.
And that Facebook IPO that's coming up? Well, let's just say that Kostan Industries is probably intimately involved. And Josef's friends are about to get a lot richer.
Alle this is SO beautiful.... 
I think that we all held our breaths with you lovely, and the characters that were in our hearts are still there daily. Inspiring us to write, create art... it was and is a truly special show. 
Thank you for sharing this... 
