Spoilers : Moonlight, season 1
Summary : Mick-POV musing about passing time. Inspired by the James Blunt song “Time is all I have” (music and lyrics link can be found in the ML music tread).
First posted : right here, today.
Disclaimer : The characters are not mine, no money is being made and no infringement is intended.
Time is all I have
I was there when you went back to school after the kidnapping. I watched as you painstakingly checked under your bed for monsters every night before you went to sleep, a little less thoroughly with every passing year. I was there when you got your first bike, and one day I stopped a car before it could crush you in the curve. I don't think you saw me.
I was there when you went on your first date. I was worried, but when you kicked that guy in the nuts for trying to cup and feel I knew you'd be ok and gave you some privacy on the next dates. I did check out the boys, and I may have scared one of them off. You seemed to have forgotten about him soon, though.
I was there when you graduated, and I almost came up to you because I was so happy and so proud. I didn't. You were with your friends and your parents, and I had no part in that. I celebrated with Josef instead, without telling him what it was about. You were a part of me I kept to myself.
I read your articles for the college magazine and found them clever and intriguing. I thought the news would be a good career choice for you, even if it was at Buzzwire. I followed your online interviews. I knew you could take care of yourself by now, yet I still kept watch out of habit, out of a need to connect. But with the death of the girl, and the mere hint that it may have been a vampire, I couldn't stay away. I would not let any vampire near enough to hurt you again. I forgot to include myself.
I was there when you cried and tore our pictures, cursing my name. You can't have seen me, but you spoke to me anyway- the way you used to talk to your imaginary hero at night. Josef told me it was for the best, that I had done the right thing, that you would not have been happy, that it wasn't meant to be - but all I could think of were your last words before you fell asleep: It was my choice, too.
I was there when you accepted his ring. I knew he would never hurt you, that he could give you a future. I did not try to stop him. I watched as you hesitated at the ceremony, paused, and looked around, as if waiting for something to happen. Nothing did.
I watched when they placed Josh in your arms for the first time. You were never more beautiful than in that moment, and I knew I had done the right thing.
Your boy started lawschool today. I am still there. I think you know it. Sometimes, your lips move. From this distance, not even my vampire ears can pick it up. I like to imagine you are saying my name.
